11/02/2020

My best friend has passed away.

He was found this morning in his bed with the lamp on. He died at 54 while he was reading a book.

We first met in primary school and we instantly became friends. We had the same interests in books, movies and games. We imagined and drew dungeons and big battles before we even knew about wargames.

We met cigarettes, alcohol, parties and girls together for the first time. We also started playing wargames together in the late seventies and early eighties when nobody else in Spain was doing it yet. We discovered together D&D, Laserburn, Warhammer first edition and Rogue Trade, but also WRG Napoleonics, DBM and DBA, as well as all Avalon Games and many many more games. Most games you can see in this blog I played with him.

He has been present in all important events of my life almost since the beginning. He was the friend who I could talk about comics, books, games, music, video games, wargames and about my private life for hours and hours. 

I saw him the same day he died. I visited him to pick up some wargames stuff he had ordered for me and we chatted a bit and made plans to meet next Saturday at his house for a game of Oathmark. We have been friends and been wargaming for almost forty years and I always thought that we would be playing for forty more, but now he's gone and I feel alone and with less will to live. We had so many projects to do and so many games to play.

What am I going to do now Paco? I miss you so much already buddy!

39 comments:

  1. Lo siento muchísimo, Javier. Qué jodidísimo quedarse de golpe sin alguien con quien has compartido tanto. Un abrazo fuerte, te acompaño en el sentimiento.

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  2. My condolences, I am really sorry to hear this. I lost one of my best friends in 2018 in an accident, I still feel the loss.

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  3. I'm so sorry. The loss of a best friend is very hard to bear; I lost mine over 25 years ago and I still miss him even now. There's so many projects and games and other parts of my life I wanted to share with him and couldn't. We only had aout 15 years together, so I can barely imagine how hard it must be to lose someone with whom you've shared so many years of experiences.



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    1. Thank you for sharing your loss and your support.

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  4. So sorry to hear this. It must be a deep shock. My commiserations.

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  5. Words are insufficient in times like these. I am sorry for your loss.

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  6. Very sorry to read this and for your loss. I am 58 but fortunately have not yet lost a close friend in this way - must be coming soon though I guess - unless its me of course....

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  7. Sorry for your loss. My deepest sympathies to his family and friends. RIP Paco.

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  8. Man, that sucks. What a shock to find him dead. Had he been ill? Was this expected?

    Seriously, be kind to yourself, the grief will take time to come to terms with.

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    1. It was totally unexpected. He was the healthiest of the group and it's been a shock.
      Thanks for you support.

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  9. Oh my god. I am very sorry for your loss, Javier. Having to face people close to us passing away is always the hardest test there is. It must be so much more painful when people die this young. My heartfelt condolences.

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  10. That is sad and terrible news. Losing a best friend so early with so much still to achieve is heartbreaking. My condolences and my heart go out to you.

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  11. Sorry for your loss. It sounds like you had a great time with your friend over the years with many shared gaming experiences. Those are memories to treasure.

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  12. I know its not much, but I feel for you and the lose of your long time friend.

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  13. Muchos ánimos Javier!

    A veces no nos damos cuenta de que todos tenemos que irnos algún día, estamos ocupados viviendo que se nos olvida hasta que una experiencia cercana te devuelve a la realidad....

    Se despidió haciendo algo que le gustaba, cuando pase un poco más de tiempo verás las cosas de otra manera y seguirás manteniendo su recuerdo vivo :)

    Un abrazo y mucha fuerza!

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  14. I'm sorry about your loss. Its always even harder when its unexpected. You have written a very nice tribute to him. He sounds like he was a great guy.

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    1. As it usually happens, he was the best from our group; always kind and generous.
      Thank you Chris.

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  15. So sorry to hear this. What a terrible thing it is to lose a friend. Deepest condolences, and take care of yourself.

    Aaron

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  16. The autopsy revealed he died from a heart attack. I hope it was fulminant and he didn't suffer much.
    Somehow reading your kinds comments I'm feeling less alone. Thanks for your support. It helps, thank you all.

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  17. So sorry to hear of this, Javier.

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  18. All my prayers and thoughts are with you.
    I lost my best friend 5 years ago, and at times it still feels like he was sitting in my kitchen yesterday.
    Stay strong.

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  19. I'm also sorry about your loss. Now I know what it is. I can't get out him of my mind.
    Thank you.

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  20. Siento terriblemente tu perdida Javier. Para mi eran una pareja inseparable y en total sintonía, el Zipi y Zape del mundillo en Las Palmas. Por favor traslada mis condolencias a familia y amigos. Mucho ánimo y fuerza.
    Pedro

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    1. Muchas gracias por tus cariñosas palabras Pedro. Un abrazo.

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  21. So sorry to hear that, a terrible loss. Take care of yourself.

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